Precious Joy

You come up to me
Hand extended
Waiting for mine to reach out
To grab your own.

But this fear grips at my soul,
My body wanting to reach out
To embrace your own
Letting myself melt in those arms.

That expression on your face,
Tells of hope and trust
But my doubt replaces it all
Not wanting to believe that you are there in front of me.

I doubt the very notion that you could want me
That you are putting self pity on me,
I wish to disappear
I wish that this could end before I get hurt.

Even if I try to leave
You reach out and embrace me either way
Holding me against you
Whispering words of love and happiness.

My hands holds your own
These tears of mine falling down
Dripping onto those strong arms around me
They only held me tighter when those tears hit your skin.

I wish to trust you
I wish to know that you care
But my body won't accept it,
Pain and suffering filled my life, it was all I knew.

You say that you care but will I know for sure?
I'm stubborn
I'm doubtful
Yet you are still here...

Holding me in your arms
Not letting me slip through your grip
This happiness
This love I believe you hold...

Will this end to be a dream?
A dream that I wish to be reality?
For the day you can hold me
For the day I can hear your voice...

This Precious Joy I keep close to my heart.